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| 2,079 |
| 11.16.05 (5:14 pm) [edit] |
2,079 to most is just a number. Yet that number represents the number of U.S. service members who have died since the war began in 2003. Is war right or is it wrong, is it needed or not, is the loss worth the gain, do the means justify the ends? I have no answer. I do not know. Your heart may tell you one, your head may tell another. It's all in the eyes of the beholder. Lives are lost no matter the race. A life is a life despite it all. Do the "bad" guys deserve to die? If you take a life do you deserve to die? Is "killed or be killed" a sentence to justify killing. Protection, Justice, Right, Wrong, Reason, Need, are words which we as humans, place significant meaning upon.
These are the things which I've always wondered, more so recently. Could the person you care about become the next number? Insecurity of the unknown, the future, the moments which shall ensue. Is it right to place blame on someone (i.e. the President) when the people that joined the armed forces knew what they were signing up for? To protect the U.S., it's citizens, freedom. Is there a singular person with which we can ultimately place blame on? Perhaps it is but emotion that we need to feel the urge to subdue our anger, sadness, and righteousness of understanding the events that harm "our" people.
This is just an opinion, not meant to be political nor offend anyone.
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| Busy, Tired, Learning |
| 07.06.05 (6:57 pm) [edit] |
So... work at a vet now, Animal Clinic of Benson. I actually learn a lot there, surgeries almost everyday, as well as vaccinations about 5+ times a day. Average about 6-7 hours 5-6 days a week from around 9am-3pm and it's closed on Sundays so I still work at Java Monkie on Sundays for tip money so I have gas money for the week, damn the new tax they added. It's fine they did it for cigarettes and alcohol (deter addictions is fine), but goddamn why, why gas. Taking one class this summer, Engl 101 at BCC online just because I thought it'd be easier. And... I was right. It's not that bad so long as you stay up with all the assignments and it's way more convenient.
Sean's working at Target again... but Southcenter one instead and tends to work in the late afternoon to evening. And since his car is broken... also again, I had to take his butt to work for a little or give him a ride home which was a pain because I wanted to sleep at 11 pm not pick his ass up from work. He's driving his car again even though the radiator has gone to shit.
So with his schedule and mine in the last few weeks we only see each other on days off or mostly late at night for a few hours till we go to sleep. And he's headed to Japan, country of small expensive electronics and annoying music but good anime, in 4 more days. In the last couple of days he's been hanging out with Gnome a lot, those two are so homosexual together or in their terms "on the same level" level of 10-year-olds. Either way, I just think they act gay with each other. Hines knows what I mean.
[u]Things I've got Planned[/u]
~ Neuter my dogs $$
~ Get shots for our new kitten Zena
~ Do Engl HW
~ Work
~ Clean.... maybe.
...that's all so far. If I think of any more non-important things to post on that list that are common and uninteresting I'll be sure to post them in a timely manner, like when I'm bored.
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| Fall Schedule |
| 06.16.05 (11:31 pm) [edit] |
http://home.comcast.net/~icygrl02/fall_schedu le.doc
First update in awhile and there's my schedule for upcoming fall quarter.
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| 4/20 Just another day |
| 04.19.05 (11:00 pm) [edit] |
Well by the time I'm done typing this, it'll officially be my birthday....woohoo I guess. Yes, 19!...which absolutely does nothing more for me than when I was 18. It really is just like any other day. Actually had to be reminded because I had so many other things to do this week, not to mention I basically have 2 babies keeping me busy from the minute I get home till their bed time.
So, other news, I'm moving into an apartment this Sunday. That's about all I'll say, don't care to get into it because I care not to hear about all the skeptical remarks people have to say. In other words, people's negative opinions or faked interest tend to not matter to me.
[b][u]Birthday Gifts So Far....[/u][/b]
[i]Thank you:[/i]
* [b]Joyce [/b]- an Abercrombie thong. Provocative, sporty, and from a business known for hiring mainly white people. Very cool :)
* [b]Dad [/b]- an awesome new printer for when I move out. Don't know a whole lot on computers, printers, needed hookups, etc but in his words, it's very "economical" (typical dad :roll: ). It'll be fast and that's the main feature I need.
* [b]Mom [/b]- a computer chair, finally a nice chair to sit in. 8)
* [b]Jason [/b]- where's my gift you bum??!?
* [b]Aaron [/b]- I'll get it tomorrow in our Com class along with my extremely late christmas gift. [update] some kind of expensive perfume called Hiris.... uh nice?
* [b]Myself [/b]- buying a "L" shaped desk from Kmart, still have the same one from when I was 10... can't fit both my labtop and ginormous biology book on it.
* [b]Sean[/b] - hmm.... not a clue.
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| Two of a Kind |
| 03.22.05 (6:11 pm) [edit] |
So the title to this blog is a little corny, bare with it. It's Spring Break and so far it's off to a better than normal start. Got two new little doxons/dachshunds/weiner dogs. Gambit is the mini dapple one. He looks a little scrawny (because he is) and has blue eyes so it's hard to get a good picture. Colossus (I let Sean name him) is the standard black & tan one and he's surprisingly younger by a week. He's a pretty solid guy. Meh they're names fit them or at least I think so. Here's some pictures, enjoy.
http://home.comcast.net/" title="http://home.comcast.net/" target="_blank"http://home.comcast.net/~icygrl02/DSCF0072.JPG
http://home.comcast.net/" title="http://home.comcast.net/" target="_blank"http://home.comcast.net/~icygrl02/DSCF0074.JPG
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http://home.comcast.net/" title="http://home.comcast.net/" target="_blank"http://home.comcast.net/~icygrl02/DSCF0092.JPG
That's all for now. And if you didn't enjoy, meh go screw yourself :.)
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| Been a while |
| 02.24.05 (2:58 pm) [edit] |
So it's been a while since I blogged, hardly anyone updates anymore...well except good ol' brother, he updates almost daily...(how the heck does one person have so much to say so often). But basically anyone with a freaking xanga and that have 30 some odd friends whom religiously check xanga will update almost everyday.
[b][u]Recent/Random Things:[/u][/b]
[b]~[/b] [b]Brother[/b]'s car was jacked right behind his house almost a week ago, but they found it the other day. Faceplate was missing off his stereo......but the stereo was still there......some fucking thieves. Almost all his shit was left in there, only 2 or 3 cds missing (apparently thought his taste in music sucked), along with half-eaten donuts, ice cream on the floor, one of the guys' bag with his name on court papers....what a dumbass. No parts missing, the fender was a little bent, but works fine. All and all looks like his car was just taken for a joy ride. He got DAMN lucky.
[b]~[/b] [b]Classes:[/b] Chem is about the same, shitty as usual. Ess... well it'd be nice if I could make it to lecture. Cse, thank god I dropped it, even my friends that are good at programming are having trouble in the class now. Suckers. Cse women's seminar is still lame, annoying, and a waste of time.
[b]~[/b] [b]Seems[/b] like I'm always doing chem hw....quiz, prelab, postlab, and lab each week. Yeah, sounds about right. :?
[b]~[/b] [b]No one new [/b]worth talking to. Overall, UW has still proven to be [u]not[/u] as great as what it's been talked up to be. Parties lately are mediocre...I could go anywhere to talk to a drunken idiot, even a bum on the street. And could drink at the apartment saving me a long ass drive to Seattle where the "party" doesn't even start till 12-2 am.
[b]~[/b] [b]Last movie [/b]I saw: "Assault on Precinct 13" Great movie. IF it had lasted longer in theatres I'd recommend people to go see it.
[b]~[/b] [b]Why[/b] the fuck when I buy some rice cakes do people think I'm dieting or trying to watch my weight....maybe they just taste good, and so does a McDonald's cheeseburger and fries. As thin as I am, the hell do I care what I eat.
[b]~[/b] [b]Dad [/b]bought a big ass flat-screen tv. And no we're not rich... Then had this comcast harddrive installed today to make the picture clearer. Meh free HBO for 3 months.
[b]~[/b] [b]WoW[/b].... dang, sooo addictive.
[b]~[/b] [b]Gas[/b] is on the rise $$$, CRAP.
[b]~[/b] [b]Work [/b] sort of sucks because business is slow making Kathie (my boss) a stressed/easily irritated/angry pain. Not to mention a gooddamn Starbucks is moving in across the street. Corporate bastards.
[b]~[/b] [b]The guys' apartment [/b]will be no more in April :cry: . I'll miss hearing "go burn in hell." Hines is so cool, who am I going to bug when he's gone :oops: .
[b]~[/b] [b]Last[/b] but not least, I've been in a good mood lately. Despite all you've read, that's just the way I talk. Happy to be with my man. :)
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| New Year |
| 01.01.05 (2:47 pm) [edit] |
New Year's Eve was hmm alright I guess. Not as bad as going to fucking Illusions like last year surrounded by a bunch of 6 yr olds. Played poker, texas holdem, and Blackjack with a few friends. That was fun. A little money involved. Didn't win of course. And that was most of the extent of New Year's Eve. Really wished there had been alcohol since I didn't have to work today, but no one wanted to hit any parties. Damn, oh well. Getting over a slight cold anyways. I left for a little to see a few friends that were down the street, but then came back right before midnight. At midnight we stopped Napoleon Dynamite and switched to the news to watch the Space Needle set off fireworks. Never seems that interesting to watch than if you were actually there freezing your ass off and being squished by a few hundred people. I guess if you're really into the whole New Year thing, maybe it would be more worth wild. Meh I can't complain I still got a kiss later. Watched The Village around 12:30, but eventually turned it off, it's not that good of a movie... at all.
Hmm I'm not a fanatic in celebrating overemphasized, over exaggerated, and overstressed holidays, but there are some aspects that appeal to me. However, I tend to care about what others would prefer to do. Fuck me.... 'By not imposing hardly anything, the outcome is scarcely close to nothing.' I guess that's true but it sounds like a stupid fortune cookie. Most of that ridiculous traditional crap is lame in my opinion. Mainly I think, it's like a bunch of mindless idiots doing what everyone else does. To participate in it just because some other dumbass is, to throw money left and right, or do things you wouldn't normally do for one supposed special time. But a small part thinks, if you actually got caught up in it all, drinking and doing all the other things everyone else does, the difference is at midnight, they're all smiling, are idiotically cheerful, and having a great time even on a dumb holiday.
Maybe I am too cynical or it is just a cop out like so many other things....
Bah start of winter quarter meaning back to classes on Monday.
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| Background |
| 12.18.04 (4:29 pm) [edit] |
I was bored, so redid my background and added a few pics. The other one got old.
Hmm I like it. I'm sure it resembles or looks like "everyone" elses... but who gives.
Good, bad, meh?
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| Finals |
| 12.12.04 (11:38 pm) [edit] |
It's getting toward 1:40 am and I'm still making my semi-decent attempt to study. Either damn my slacking or damn those nerds with no lives. Only 3 more days of school so I guess that's the upside.
My schedule goes something like this:
Mon: Astronomy final 8:30-10:20, rest of day cram for Criminology final, Tues: no final, but chemistry study center, then study for chem more since I don't know that shit, and fit in a little more criminology knowledge, Wed: Chem final 8:30-10:20, 5 hours before next final so I'll probably study, then Criminology final 4:30-6:20.
Can you fit so much fun into 3 days...
In the end, I'm thinking Finals will own me.
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| Music |
| 12.05.04 (10:46 pm) [edit] |
Well whomever reads this, how about an opinion, any on the following (i.e. good or bad, favorite out of them, etc): on some new songs playing on the radio now and some slighty older songs.
[u][b]New[/b][/u]
1. [i][b]Ryan Cabrera[/b][/i] - True
2. [i][b]Sugarcult[/b][/i] - She's the Blade
3. [i][b]Kelly Clarkson[/b][/i] - Breakaway
4. [i][b]Simple Plan [/b][/i]- Welcome To My Life
5. [i][b]Lifehouse[/b][/i] - Everybody Is Somebody
6. [i][b]Jesse McCartney [/b][/i]- Beautiful Soul
7. [i][b]Nelly ft. Tim McGraw [/b][/i]- Over and Over
8. [i][b]Good Charlotte [/b][/i]- Just Wanna Live
9. [i][b]Gavin Degraw [/b][/i]- I Wanna Be
10. [i][b]Yellowcard[/b][/i] - Only One
[u][b]Old[/b][/u]
11. [i][b]Edwin McCain [/b][/i]- I Could Not Ask For More
12. [i][b]Dashboard Confessional[/b][/i] - Hands Down
13. [i][b]Good Charlotte [/b][/i]- Girls and Boys
14. [i][b]Lifehouse[/b][/i] - Hanging By A Moment
15. [i][b]Simple Plan [/b][/i]- One By One
16. [i][b]Goo Goo Dolls [/b][/i]- Slide
17. [i][b]3 Doors Down [/b][/i]- Be Like That
18. [i][b]Sugarcult[/b][/i] - Bouncing Off the Walls
19. [i][b]Fuel[/b][/i] - Falls On Me
20. [i][b]Zebrahead [/b][/i]- The Real Me
I personally like True the best right now.
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| Schedule Update *Edited* 11/29 |
| 11.28.04 (8:51 pm) [edit] |
Finally was able to get at least a better time schedule, different classes too....still Chem 152 though. But better time, so whatever can't complain. And now taking Survey of Asian Art, meh good VLPA credit, and Intro into Geological Science, uh it just fit my schedule and is my easy class this quarter.
http://home.comcast.net/" title="http://home.comcast.net/" target="_blank"http://home.comcast.net/~icygrl02/wintersch.doc *CHANGED*
(And my schedule according to Aaron just got wayyyy harder. Thanks to CSE 142 but I need it out of the way. Thursday looks ok but both will be quiz days.)
This might change again, but I doubt it. Still needed more than wanted Microeconomics. Oh well.
[i][b]All-American Rejects[/b][/i] - Your Star
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| Never Changing |
| 11.26.04 (8:13 pm) [edit] |
I traveled on a narrow path
Alone, along Life's road.
The burdens that I bared along
Were such a heavy load.
The baggage that I carried around
Seemingly without a single faze.
I'd like to stop and find some rest
Escape a constant daze.
Inability to open is ever present
And not to my surprise.
More doubt could undermine
What shows in people's eyes.
[LINE]
Yeah yeah..... I know. Another stupid poem. Bite me.
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| Last Few Days |
| 11.23.04 (8:03 pm) [edit] |
So as for the last few days..... I've had lots on my mind. Things I'll figure out on my own. Just makes things more simple and it works for me. Relying on others isn't my strong area. Talked some to a few people, but man I hate to make people ears, sure as hell hate to be one, but I'd do the same for them [u]only[/u] too. Still, feels like there's so much right now I just can't see myself telling anyone.... personal preference I guess. Who knows.
Registration, here's my winter schedule. Stupid insurance thing, up at 5:45, but didn't get to register till 6:20, damn. Otherwise I could've gotten ECON 200, but oh well, even though they'll be easy, I'm really interested in of the classes I got. All but Chem.
http://home.comcast.net/" title="http://home.comcast.net/" target="_blank"http://home.comcast.net/~icygrl02/wintersch.doc
[b]Rascal Flatts[/b] - Holes
[i]There's three in the wall, from those pictures in the closet
Two in the bedroom, from that night I lost it
And one deep inside me, determined to stay
They don't get any bigger, but they don't go away
Holes in and around me, I keep falling back into
Holes digging in and surround me
There's two through my hands, and one through my feet
From this cross that I bare, to the day that I see
It's guilt and it's blame, it's shame and it's love
Deep in the truth, I dug them myself[/i]
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| Not too bad |
| 11.14.04 (4:53 pm) [edit] |
Well it's been a while since I posted, but I've got some time to kill.
Thanks to good ol' Veteran's Day, no classes which was awesome. Sounds just a little shallow, but c'mon we all like not having to go to class. But in respect, it honors those that died for our country and I hope for those that celebrated it, that it went well.
Spent most of my free time at the apartment. It was fun, got drunk off cheap beer with Sean and Aaron and Hines which Sean's dad was so kind to buy for us. Amber, Sherriene (sp?), and Jessica joined us later too, but by then I was already pass my limit. Meh slept like a rock that night, it was awesome but I'm only going to stick to 2 beers now. Watched American Wedding one of the nights and like Ryan said and I agree, Sean is a lot like Stiffler. Haha. It was fun, usually is, most the time if I stay home on my free time I'll just sit on the couch watching tv or mess around on the computer, either way, it's boring and lonely to just do nothing, so going out is cool. Doing the same old boring stuff is nice once in a while but not all the time. Played Halo 2 with Ryan, Andy, Sean, Aaron, and Hines too. I sucked hardcore, but they were funny as hell. Damn I don't know how they can play it for so long, it's cool for the first hour but after that, eh I'm done. Good times, good times. And got so much sleep last week.
Last week was easy and I slacked, but this week is going to be a bitch. 2 midterms so my time just went from a lot to almost none. Fuck, but it's all good. :)
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| Flyer-pushers |
| 10.26.04 (10:47 pm) [edit] |
It was a nice cool day, walking back to my car at the Montlake parking lot...almost 15 minutes away. As I approach the HUB, I see the usual political tents with all the white people telling everyone to vote for Kerry or Bush. Usually I pass through each day unbothered... unfortunately today wasn't one of those days. Eh, so what the heck I thought, might as well humor the guy.
[b]Flyer-pusher:[/b] Do you love your grandma?
[b]Me:[/b] (wtf...where's he going with this...) Uh Yeah.
[b]Flyer-pusher:[/b] Well George W. Bush doesn't.
[b]Me:[/b] ......... ......... Why's that?
[b]Flyer-pusher:[/b] Because he doesn't.
[b]Me:[/b] And the reason? (as I look at the flyer saying Bush doesn't support flu shots & it will kill more people than 9/11)
[b]Flyer-pusher:[/b] *silence as if dumbfounded*
[b]Me:[/b] So basically you're telling me to vote for Kerry... because he cares.... yet your reason is ....
[b]Flyer-pusher:[/b] Yeah.
[b]Me:[/b] ....Thanks.
I feel completely unwavered and that I wasted at least a good 5 minutes of my life. The guy handing out flyers didn't even know what the hell he was handing out. It's nice to know they have complete dumbasses with no opinion about the actual election other than "Bush doesn't care" helping to get people to vote.
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| Goddamn, it's 5am |
| 10.24.04 (8:09 am) [edit] |
Ahh it's late, freaking listen to music too late on the weekends.
[u][b]New[/b][/u]
[b]-[/b] Chem Midterm #1[b]:[/b] class avg. 75%, my score 77. Suits me just fine.
[b]-[/b] Soc Quiz (hella hard)[b]:[/b] class avg. 12 out of 20, my score 13. Also not bad.
[b]-[/b] Astr Midterm #1[b]: [/b]don't know, just took it Friday. Eh, think I did alright.
So long as I hit just right above the average, I'm cool with it all. I don't devote all my time to studying as much as the people I've met do. Fact is half the time I'm listening to music, watching tv, napping, chatting online, or hanging out. There's one other fairly new thing, so if you've hung out with me fairly recently, then I've probably mentioned it. : )
Tonight, bought costume (YAY!) w/ Tiff, Melissa, and Alex. Both the night before and tonight was fun dressing up with them ^.^ Happy I didn't end up spending as much as I thought and on top of that it actually looks pretty nice and fits alright too. Can't wait to wear it. Also, Aaron's party is this friday for sure which is even better so all of us have something to do for Halloween. But more importantly a reason to get their costumes :wink:.
Cooked dinner with Hines. We had steak, fries, and caesar salad. Then for dessert we had Karamel Sutra (Ben & Jerry's) ice cream.
He cooked the steak. The fries were frozen and just went in the oven. I shook the salad in the bag with the dressing....so talented. Basically he did most the cooking, that being the steak and I drove, so in the end I like to say we broke even. ;.P
[i][b]Total Value[/b][/i][b]:[/b] $10.50 -- total per person[b]:[/b] $5.25
[i][b]When it rung up[/b][/i][b]:[/b] Oh Heck Yeah :!:
[i][b]Taste[/b][/i][b]:[/ b] Awesome
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| Late night post |
| 10.17.04 (6:25 am) [edit] |
Went to Aaron's small party friday, it was alright, didn't want to drink anything. Got there close to 11. Just wanted to get out and see a few friends that's all. Was there for only about an hour and a half. Saw girls suck at foos ball.... again, but this time saw them have to kiss afterwards, pretty entertaining. After that it was boring and the party next door was lame. Only good part about not drinking was I could leave anytime. So I did, at 12:30. The drive home wasn't shitty like it usually is since I had some company. Managed to enjoy the night, which I wasn't expecting.
Today, just talked to Tiff online and she's going to help me find a costume for Halloween. Off the sites we were looking at..... what I chose she said weren't showy enough lol. And compared to what Tiff picked out haha mine weren't even on the same scale. God damn she picks revealing costumes :wink:. She suggested the naughty nurse, sexy cop, and naughty french maid. And she liked [u]one[/u] of the ones I picked, sexy pinstripe gangster girl. IF there is a party [b]and[/b] IF she comes wearing her maid outfit [b]then[/b] I said I'd wear anything she picks out. Even if there isn't a party, ha I might just get a costume anyways. Hopefully we can go check stuff out after I work friday.
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| Solemn |
| 10.15.04 (4:14 am) [edit] |
Alone in a place...
lies the confusion of many.
Sitting in their solemn thoughts...
rolling over the present.
Amidst the turmoil dwelling inside...
they forbode the time.
Lost in obscure expectations...
weary of a path ahead.
Chilled by the feeling of cold eyes...
and surrounded by statues...
warmth will slowly succumb.
Their somber lips smile...
as cheerful as they can;
To disguise the restless sorrow...
concealed in their heart.
It's a poem...as if it weren't blatantly obvious... Usually not a poetic person, in fact I hate writing. By a lot of people's standards eh it probably sucks, feel free to criticize. Not like I care. It's just something that came to mind. So don't be a complete Fucker about it.
Not all gloomy[b]:[/b]
Yet even beneath such somber skies...
a hint of light can still be seen.
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| Someday |
| 10.09.04 (6:54 am) [edit] |
Caught up on things with Joyce, Pat, Derrick, and Connor tonight. It's nice that things have passed over, there's no awkward or odd feelings since we're all single and it just doesn't matter. I'm glad they invited me over, was actually entertaining. It's nice to know things are ok again.
Joyce asked me earlier: "Do you have anything you want?" (Materialistic or in general) Tough question, heck if I know anymore...
I told her what came to mind... which was there's nothing I want, nothing I expect, when there is then I'll work hard for it. Right now I'm just working to get what I need to get done. Necessity comes before desire. I'll focus on what needs to get done. We're not in high school anymore, all those little thoughts, wants, and desires we had... that's all they are. It's time to grow up, realize things can change, and do what needs to be done. Human nature is to look out for your own self-interest. All of this isn't to say do this or don't do that, it's whatever way you want to look at things, still have what's important to you. I'll always keep close what's most important to me and never let it slip away.
The future isn't determined. I'll make my own and I guess what I 'want' is to figure things out as I go along.
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| Same ol' same ol' |
| 10.08.04 (4:25 am) [edit] |
Just finished up my notes for astronomy, worked on chemistry homework some more only 2 problems left to finish, I did reading for criminology earlier. Man college is boring, haven't met anyone that's worth talking to more than once. Every time you meet someone it's always the same "What are you taking?" "Where are you from?" "Living on campus?".... you sit next to them one day, then you don't see them again. Only good things about college are being able to skip, more time on your hands (syllabus tells you what is expected and when your exams are), and yeah it's better than high school. To describe college in one word... eh.
After classes, the day was fun. Hung out and ran errands :) . I enjoy those days and for that short time, there's no where else I'd rather be. Plus how could I not laugh or smile when he says the "You're starting to piss me off" (sometimes unexpected... then again sometimes provoked [b];.P[/b]) at least once when we hang out. ^.^
Here's a relaxing song when I wonder about things. Sounds great & lyrics are even better. (Yeah, it's country.... so?)
[b]Kenny Chesney[/b] - [i]"When I Think About Leaving"[/i]
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| Aaron's Party |
| 10.02.04 (6:12 am) [edit] |
[i][b]Before Party-[/b][/i] Not too many people there till around 11pm. Kept my deal with Aaron to drink a shot or two of something... ended up being Orange Twist Smirnoff 70 proof. Man that shit tasted nasty. Wasn't till the second one I started to feel it. Definitely makes you more social which was great.
~[u]The Jello Fight[/u]~
[b]Round 1:[/b] wimpy girl on girl fight....lame
[b]Round 2:[/b] wrestler girl steps in & slams on previous winner girl
[b]Round 3:[/b] Will gets his ass served to him on a plater by wrestler girl
[b]Round 4:[/b] Aaron goes against her, he dominated
[b]Round 5:[/b] some other girl joins in to help her, aaron owned on both of them
Nice fight overall, splashed jello everywhere, walls, people, damn entertaining ^.^
[i][b]Glad they were there-[/b][/i] Hines was awesome and even looked out for me a little. Aaron got me to lighten up and have some fun. Sean... was Sean lol, uh I think he 'might' have done a little of each. Aaron and his roommates were awesome party throwers, they go around to make sure everyone is enjoying themselves. Even saw Greg Hasselfeld & Amber, hadn't seen either of them in 2 years.
[i][b]Meeting People-[/b][/i] Met a lot of people, only remember about half their names. Two different guys kind of freaked me out a little...they each kept mentioning staying at their place instead of driving home or just stopping by to see their place few houses down or a block or two from where we were. ...Complete scum...I wasn't that drunk nor would I ever be that stupid. Just avoided them the rest of the night. Some guys were really nice, one was really cool to talk to (Dan) and kept coming over to talk to me. His roommates were fun too. Exchanged numbers and they're having their first house party tomorrow... but don't think I'll go. It's such a long ass drive to Seattle.
[i][b]My Hat-[/b][/i] (since some ass so kindly critcized it when I got there :roll:) I'm not one to wear barely anything and dress like a slut or whore, I'd rather be comfortable because who the hell do I care to impress... complete strangers... psh fuck that. Mainly though, I knew I'd try stronger stuff and didn't want someone flirting with me, then getting too close to me if I wasn't as aware as I wanted to be after taking some shots.
[i][b]End of Night-[/b][/i] Uhh Dan wanted to kiss me and even mentioned it then leaned in to.... Gave him the cheek, told him I don't kiss people I've just met. He understood, said it was cool, then gave me a hug and asked me to come to his party tomorrow night. Flat out, I don't kiss just anyone... don't plan to... shoot I've only kissed 3 guys in my life (there's my whopping number of relationships), at least all were meaningful. Oh well... tonight it hit me, the thought of being with someone made me want to be single and alone even more (felt kind of smothered toward the end & actually wanted to leave a earlier but was still kind of wobbly). It's not to date around or have flings, just makes things easier and it's not like I have to force myself, I already lack the interest to.
It's all or nothing. That's the way I see it. And I'd rather have nothing.
[i][b]Overall:[/b][/i] the party was crazy, awesome, and hella enjoyed it. Best party out of the 3 (...shut up) that I've been to.
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| Different |
| 09.26.04 (10:09 pm) [edit] |
Went a few places around Seattle the last couple days. Mostly meeting my brother's roommates and going to some small parties meeting a few new people. His roommates are pretty cool to hang with. Got to know Di a little since my brother wasn't there when he asked me to visit him. We had fun criticizing him and just bluntly speaking of general things. Figured out the streets and everything better.... Makes getting around a hell of a lot easier.
It's weird, at the first party I was surprised how pretty all the girls were. ....Then hours pass .... the more drunk they got .....the skankier they got .... louder .... and ..... uglier ...??? I can see why guys like a girl all up on them so I guess I see why "girls are hotter when they're more drunk." Whatever.... heck if I know. I didn't drink anything basically because I have to drive home to work on Saturday. Not that I care much for the whole drinking thing. But I do feel like I'm missing out just a little .......
Stopped by Aaron's on my way to the freeway. He gave me an alcohol proof lesson since they had a shit load of empty assorted vodka bottles....and I really don't know much about what types are out there. Also... to get me to lighten up a little...
1) We agreed that Friday I'll [u]try[/u] whatever he makes/mixes for me.
2) If I really really dislike it, [b]he'll[/b] chug it down (can't be wasteful), and then we'll both just take a shot of whatever he picks out.
The last few days have felt different though. They felt long and slow like they'd never end. Even though I went out and did things hmm... it just seems like it's been slow lately.....
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| Update + Recent Thoughts |
| 09.22.04 (5:28 pm) [edit] |
Eh, thought I'd update this thing. Managed to avoid the stupid FIGs. Here's my schedule.
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Nothing to complain about since I won't have any 8:30am classes and I'll still finish before 2:30pm at least everyday, sometimes earlier. Whatever, it works. Oh wait.... there is something to complain about, fucking books cost $350 bucks. Man I love how much UW rips students off.
Hmm other thoughts.... thinking about this summer.... it was a lot better than I thought it would be. Sure there's the drama and all the other shit, but I found a person that made me smile this summer.... despite everything else, that's the main thing that comes to mind. Because I was planning on just working non-stop this summer and to screw dating, friends, etc....
But I had fun and got to know other people like his friends and their friends. They're all awesome people. We're completely different.... but I guess I got used to him and I like him for who he is. I always will. He's a great person and was there for me in hard times. We can't pick who we like or who we feel things for, kind of just happens.... but it's good I like beef jerky and went to Target for it.
No clue what I want.... just not a huge commitment right now. 8 years of schooling ahead of me, work, I'll be busy, so will he, but part of me still wants to be slightly committed.... ha that probably doesn't make sense.... eh oh well. Fuck you, makes sense to me :wink:. Guess I like to see things for myself. I don't like to pre-judge as if things are absolutely going to be like that.
Not worried about much because it's too much work and stress to worry. I'd rather just relax and see what happens. If anything I know we'll still be close friends. I'm just glad that I found someone that I could care so much for and feel so comfortable with.
Goddamn still hooked on this song.
[b]Maroon 5[/b] - She Will Be Loved
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| Bye Bye Blockbuster |
| 09.05.04 (3:13 pm) [edit] |
Finally a day off today. I think I've been working too much. My body hurts and a fucking carton of milk was heavy the other day... Eh, whatever, but after this week I've made up my mind that I'm going to quit Blockbuster. The people there are awesome and it's a nice job...but with school coming up, carpooling or bussing my ass to UW every morning and trying to work the night shifts wouldn't exactly be easy. As for Java Monkie, I'll keep it, since she's way more lenient on hours.
UW orientation this Friday, so I had to look into what I'll be having to take.....if there's anything left. Stupid shitty late registration date. I'll probably end up being stuck in a FIG (Freshmen Interest Group) just to get into my Chem series class. ...what a hassle.... Oh well, you do what you gotta do. At least since my brother is moving into his new house with his friends this week, he's nice enough to give me a ride that morning.
Ugh, I still don't feel that great :x :cry:
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| Fact? |
| 08.26.04 (12:20 pm) [edit] |
Did you know about 80% of men and women who say they're too busy for a relationship......are really lonely.
Just a psychiatric fact I heard. Wonder if it's true.
Anyways, doing better lately. A certain bastard wouldn't leave me alone till I got what I needed to get out. And ever since, I've felt relieved from what was weighing on my shoulders. I guess you could say....I'm thankful for that bastard. ; )
One more day till I get my tattoo. And yeah, sure I'm excited.
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SONG(s) :
Edwin McCain - I'll Be
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