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| short end |
| 07.25.04 (11:29 pm) [edit] |
It's great, getting the short end of the stick lately. People will invite me to something or I want to hang out with them and everything revolves around one thing every fucking time.... Is he going to be there, is he working, he might be there, etc etc. And if he's there, you absolutely can't be. I love it, it's basically like everyone can be there, but you. Everyone is invited, but you. Well fuck. How awesome is that?
So what can you do. It sucks. But I understand because I [u]always[/u] have to understand. I can't be angry or bitch anyone out because guess what, then you're just an angry bitch. But I'll still freaking say something because it's bull. It is his place too, no kidding, but whatever happened to being friends like he said. It hurts.... And I can't even see the kitten I helped save and take care of, which hurts me more than it would most people. No one gets it, I want to see that little guy, I want to hold him and play with him, because that little guy means something to me since the day we rescued him. I want to be a vet someday and I guess I just get attached to animals. Go figure. As for Sean...I only lied to him the last time we spoke and said I didn't love him. For a little I was unsure because things would be stable one day and not the next. But...I know...on some level I do. I never completely loved him and completely let him in because of the unstableness that would always happen. I don't really want to admit it or say it because what a shock...I don't want to be hurt either. But telling him something like that just makes him confused and scared which in turn would make him unhappy. What can I say, I care deeply for the guy even after all this....call me nuts. And tried to be friends like he said he wanted...but must not. Who knows what he wants.
But it hurts when the people you get to know the last few months all hang out where you [u]can't be[/u] or go out in a group with that person and you [u]can't be[/u] there. All I hear lately is can't can't can't, wtf then why be friends. I love being screwed over twice in the end. It gives you so much faith in people.
It's no one's fault, I'm not angry at anyone, just the situation I guess, but how can anyone be happy when you get shut out from doing things with everyone for something you can't do anything about. I make the effort and I try, only to get a slap in the face.
Not everything has been as bad as my sarcasm above may sound. Hines and I saw some movies this last week and he walked thru Renton River Days with me, even though he works there everyday. We got neat overpriced Henna. His cultic dragon still looks like a sea horse to me. Plus he put up with a chunk load of shit on my mind. Thanks for being cool. Got asked out a by two guys already, one a customer, the other from a party a few months ago. Getting asked out is kind of annoying. Nothing wrong with them, cute, white (yeah I'm one of 'those' asians that only seem to date white......so) just not interested in dating, it's not a big deal to me.
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| Lyric Post |
| 07.24.04 (4:40 am) [edit] |
Eh, it's about time for a lyric post...that's right, because they look long and more than likely have some kind of sappy meaning. Plus the song's playing...
[b]The Calling[/b] - "Things Will Go My Way"
[i]I came to tell you
How it all began
Nothing seems to work out right
I'm broken down again
So hold me now
And say it's not forever
Maybe someday
In time
Things will go my way
Things will go my way
I've pushed to get through
The crowds in twisted souls
Just to find I'm right back here
Doing what I'm told
So take my hands
Don't let me surrender
'Cuz maybe someday
Yeah, in time
Things will go my way
Things will go my way
For all the lies
I've tasted
Just looking for the truth
For all the dreams I'm chasing
Well what am I to do
When everything's against me
The answers are all wrong
I'm hoping that I'll find out
It was worth it all along
So hold me now
And say it's not forever
Maybe someday
In time
Things will go my way
Things will go my way
Things will go my way
For all the lies
I've tasted
Just looking for the truth
For all the dreams I'm chasing
Well what am I to do
When everything's against me
The answers are all wrong
I'm hoping that I'll find out
Things will go my way
Things will go my way[/i]
Damn...I'm still awake and yes the time of this post is correct. God damn it's HOT. Maybe that's why? Eh oh well...
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| something new |
| 07.24.04 (4:20 am) [edit] |
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Yeahhh so I was going to stop posting, but my brother helped me put some music on this thing and Alex helped to adjust it so it's not some big ass bar taking up half my screen. So fuck it I guess I can still update when I feel like it. Better yet, I'll just delete the previous entry.
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SONG(s) :
Edwin McCain - I'll Be
Huh ......
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